In this world, there is a great deal of suffering and strife. This applies across all age and sex men and women, blah blah blah blah blah. I could go on for hours, spouting beliefs and philosophies in some stuffy old language, or i could go about it somewhat more directly, and get to the point.
I don't know why people are here. I don't pretend to, mostly because I don't want to get caught up in that ridiculous, petty argument. It doesn't matter. Hell it isn't even relevant to what I want to, what I need to rant about.
Pain is what makes us, what drives us. It is rarely pleasant, and few truely desire it, but without it, would we truly know happiness? What is joy, but the lack of sorrow?
And everywhere around me I see people I know, people I care about, suffering. And I feel helpless. For all of my belief, for all of my deep thought, I cannot ease it, but with the hollow sounding words of "I'm sorry, I hope you feel better". How does that help? All it is is a knee jerk reaction for so many, devoid of any real meaning, or of any true sympathy, and it fails to convey, so often any real sense of caring, just the endless repetition of that same sorry phrase. How can that make anyone anything but worse, for they know there is so little that may be done to ease their suffering.
And in the person who wishes to show an actual depth of caring, trying to help this person through with some glimmer of hope, with a reassurance in the good of the world. To remind them that in the end, there shall be a calm, and they might find themselves to be stronger, their happiness something new and pure, risen from the storm of their troubles.
I'm sorry if I may seem absent when you seem hurt. But it is because I feel helpless, not that I don't care.
Steve, I hope you feel better man. If you need a distraction or something, you know I'm good for it XP.
Ayla, I hope you and Gage's Mom might see eye to eye some day, and that maybe she'll get a little less protective. I'm sorry if you hate me, but I understand. I hope one day you might forgive me, but I understand. But I tried as hard as I could to do the best thing for the both of us, and I was thinking of you, and I'm wish it had never came to hurting you like that, but I promise you that it was only to try and make things better in the end. And I promise upon my immortal soul, upon the blood which flows through my veins, that I did not leave you to be with her. Even if you don't believe me, I know it to be true.
Ashton. I'm never really sure what going on with you. I'm really glad you made it through your troubles. I'm sorry if I'm an asshat sometimes. I hope you the best of luck, you're pretty awesome when you have your confidence.
Matt. Hell man, I know you'll probably never get to read this. I don't care much that you wont get to, cause it's the same to me. You're doing better now, but I know there's still shit going on. I hope stuff works out for you. If I can help along the way, that would be great.

So yeah. I tend to think of these things. And most of the time I let it go.


Sorry if I seem double faced when it comes to things like this. I'm not always a child..... I guess I'm just complex like that. I can't be the same all the time






And in the end there is balance
In the end there is peace
In the grand scheme of things, we are insignificant,
But without the tales of each individual, it would be pointless.